CONFESSIONS

This blog is a long time coming. It's a personal blog that's meant to be between my Lord saviour and myself. I encourage others to read my thoughts and share their thoughts. There will be words of inspiration, the brutal truths about being a Christian.

Earlier this year, I was baptized. It's the most amazing feeling being born again with Christ. I even had the opportunity to serve God earlier on the year doing missions work. It was an amazing experience. I felt I distanced myself at times, but still I could feel his work being done. I love God and I believe in God, but my difficulty is holding myself accountable in serving him and letting go of sin.

After that though, I didn’t attend church as much. I started feeling distant from everyone and everything. I felt like a fake because I wasn’t totally sure about my faith. The worse had happened—going to church became a chore. Worse yet, I started making promises that I stopped keeping.

What do I do now? I feel I’m at the crossroads. What do I do? One thing I’m not doing is turning my back on Christ—I didn’t come all this way to turn my back now. But I’m frustrated. What is my plan to improve my situation? This blog is to start. I’m having by using this forum—it’ll improve my relationship with God. I started The Weekly Wanderer as a way to improve my writing skills and it created something amazing. This is the same thing.

I’m starting to think that my journey with God has to start with he and I. I have to drop to my knees and pray my heart out and let him hear everything that I haven’t said lately. Fellowship comes second. I’ve concentrated too much on what people think and thought and not on the relationship between God and myself. Do I stop going to church? Not really, but I need to pray and find the love to do it. Right now, I lack that.

In the long run, I can see this blog breathing inspiration for other Christians. Mostly though, this blog is for struggling Christians who need a forum to vent their thoughts and to become one with God again.

I do encourage feedback. Do you struggle as a Christian? Want to quote scripture? Please do tell. Words of wisdom and encouragement are welcomed at the moment.