MIND GAMES

The Lord is there, but only when you ask for him. Satan plays with your mind when your head is totally full of sin. Right now, I feel his absence. I’m more critical and less trusting of others. Maybe I had that before, but I feel I’m more aware of it now. Last night was a perfect example. I was watching TV and I caught myself making fun of the guy. I thought about it for a second and realized, ‘What are you doing?’

I remember being full of fellowship and in a place where acceptance is paramount. When your brain is bored, satan turns it into his playground. There are of course flaws, but how can you really see past that unless you really try it. Also, I notice we always try to find fault in things that we are scared of trying. I’m having a hard time seeing myself as a child of God. I’m so used to a world of sin that thinking of someone else other than myself flickers fear when focusing on myself doesn’t become the objective.

A friend of mine who is really deep in the word told me something very useful though, “You can’t be full of faith all the time.” That means that you’ll have your peaks and valleys. The idea is to go to him when you have troubles no matter how you’re feeling.

Like I said yesterday, my #1 goal is totally bring The Lord in my life. This little blog is the step in the right direction. Let’s see where I can go from here.